Birthday Thanksgiving

This entry is specially dedicated to my CG and friends who have made this birthday such a special one for me.

I want to thank June and Tracy for the surprises since this morning. U gals are so creative..yup, it was indeed an 'unknown journey' and I was glad u two were with me all the way...

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I want to thank my CG: Tracy, Jason, Rachel, Shuling, Jeanette, Jonathan & Clarence for putting together the wonderful video- Transformation. I felt so overwhelmed that tears kept flowing. Thanks for being there with me and all ur affirmations and heartfelt wrds, I will keep it all in my mind and heart.

I also want to thank friends who have known me for years, my ex-shepherds, shepherd, Ex-sheeps, sheeps, ex- CG members, JC fren ( Masyita, Junting, Meiyan, Meiling, Kim Chun, Weizhu, Huichun, Winnie, Claire, Weiwei, Jinghe, Lean Choo, Robert & Christine) who contributed to the video with ur sharings of me - past and future. Thks for being part of my life.

I want to thank all who have given me their birthday wishes. Each msg is a blessing to me.

Lastly, I want to thank my almighty God who has changed me much, from who I was into who I am today, Though still in the process of being moulded, I believe He will continue to prune me. Dear God, I thank u for giving me a purpose to live for, confidence that comes from u and people around me who love me for who I am. You are indeed sovereign!

Happy Birthday to Me!

Happpy Birthday to me! 25 years old already.

Today you are one year older
Today you are one year wiser
Today you are one year stronger in your walk with the Lord
Happy birthday to you my sister, happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you my sister, we wanna wish u, we wanna wish u a happy birthday!

Thanks my Cinderellas! :)

A Night To Remember

Here's a snapshot of my birthday celebration with SHULING...

520pm: Tired and drained after the retreat from 8-5 at work, totally feeling like going back to slump right onto my bed.

530pm: Shuling is here! Cheery smile, lotsa energy and with excitement. She ask if I wanna take the bus or train to Vivocity. Me anything and we took the bus.
Bus Ride: A really long journey but the conversation was great. We shared our bucket list (new year resolutions) cos she has just watched the show earlier on. Talk about growing up and the friendships we have and had. I really see my younger self in her, the carefree spirit and teachability to learn.

630pm: Reached Vivocity. We saw a shop that has Tracy's name on it. In the spur of the moment, we took a picture with it and printed the picture. Indeed, capturing a moment in time.

740pm: Bought tickets to movie

815pm: We went to buy dinner but was distracted by the beautiful Xmas tree. Just have to take some shots of it. Our camera phones does no justice to the picture taken but nevertheless, the picture in the mind remains. It was gorgeous!


830pm: Reached Beach Station, all set to watch Songs of the Sea. My first time...there were so many pple but thk God we managed to get the seats in front, thks to SL's friend. I absolutely loved the show, especially the laser performance and the fireworks at the end of it. Amazing!

955pm: Watched the show, Bedtime stories. It is a heartwarming show and starred one of my favourite actors, Adam Saddler. The puppy eyes just melts ur heart :) A fantasy world brought into the real world, tht's how I will sum up the show. Which kind of sums up the night as well.

1130pm: The last surprise. I was told to close my eyes and reach out for something. Shuling say it's a hamster, I almost freaked out! Ha, thkfully its not but a nice, bright flower.

What a night to remember. Thanks, my dear SHU for everything. You are very special to me :)

How Did You Spend Your Christmas?

This morning I smsed 3 friends to ask them, "How was your Christmas spent?"

Person 1: Great! Was fun how bout u?
Me: Ha ok :) Had a good rest in the day and went for dinner at helipad for a drink with some friends for a catch up. What did you do?
Person 1: Went for a party n service before that. Then stay over at my friend's place hee catching up.
Person 2: Went out with my parents...
Person 3 (no response)

This year is a quiet Christmas for me, unlike past years when we had parties and movies etc on Christmas Eve. I had a good meet-up in the morning followed by a catch-up with 3 good friends in the night. Went for dim sum at Geylang with Jason before he went for his personal retreat to Bintan. It was good to be able to talk in a setting apart from ministry matters (though can't help mentioning it). It was a time of openess. I also received a phonecall from DAISY, all the way from US. Really brighten up my day :)

At night, went with Meiling, Meiyan and June for dinner and a drink at Helipad. It is a nice bar at the rooftop which overlooks the clarke quay area. The view was beautiful. I am glad to be able to spend time with these sisters who have seen me grow up from my university days as a christian. Both(ML and MY) are my ex-shepherds and in my opinion, people with gentle and sweet spirit. I really thank God for their guidance and how they helped me learn to be objective and grow from my wilfulness and stubborness. They have loved me with their hearts and now as I see them getting into a relationship with their other half, I see them exemplifying the same love. As I hear them share their experiences, I learn much and more to learn.

The basin at the helipad. It's is very interesting. You have to step on the button (hand pointing to it in the picture) in order for the water to flow from the tap :)

Year End Syndrome

(View from starbucks where we were sitting)

Had a good time of chill-out with Dehua and Jinghe last night. Was meant to celebrate my birthday but to me, I recieved more than that. It feels good to be sitting down, with a few like-minded people and just talk about life, experiences, perspectives. Anywhere is fine because the conversation is not restricted by the setting, it goes way beyond. We really delved into the deeper things in life and my mind was engaged. Can't believe we stayed till 115. We were like talking non-stop and totally lost track of time. Dehua shared b4 that my birthday falls in a good period cos it is a festive season but somewhat this year I am experiencing the year-end syndrome (in my own words). Many things to make sense, reconcile, search deep within and move on with a clear mind. Thks for being there!

Photos taken @ The Ark

Photos taken at Vivian's Farewell

Lord I'm Amazed By You

Today I experienced the Grace of God in a very intimate way... To me, the grace of God brings to mind the image of my little finger holding on to His big hand. Underservingly, I hold on to Him.

Things have been moving fast, activity after activity. Though unconsciously I feel I have been doing the right things, I do not have the time to consciously examine the purpose of each activity. In the quiet of the night after the party, I sat thinking about the event that has passed. I am thankful to God for goodhearted people who joined us. Melinda who baked gingerbread man for everyone in the group. Edwin who told me he is glad he is part of us and Brian who offered to help with the logistics even though he is uncertain what is going on. I am genuinely praying in my heart that they will join the CG. Looking at myself, inexperienced and full of weakness yet God chooses to use me and bless me. I can identify with the testimony shared by Meihong how she appear lesser in comparison to her siblings but God gave her a confidence to serve. A song I love came to mind - Amazed.

You danced over me
While I was unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear the sound
Lord I'm amazed by You...
How you love me

Pastor Jeff shared before that when he sings this song, he visualise God as a father watching over a child sound asleep. In God's protection, I feel His love and assurance.

Yes Man

Yes Man is a comedy based on a memoir by Danny Wallace first published in July 2005. According to the book, he describes how he spent six months saying "Yes" to any question or proposal that comes his way in his everyday life. Once again, we see Jim Carrey doing what he does best, making people laugh. Well, for those who are looking for a rolling good time of laughter, catch the show! There are many scenes in the show that will keep you laughing throughout. The acting is great and the plot, hilarious. Though there are some parts which are predictable, the overall show was very entertaining and keeps you waiting for more. I particularly like the scene when he plays the guitar to persuade a man from committing suicide. He was really sincere in an absolutely funny way. Entertaining as it is, it brings forth a principle about life. As the character learns along the way what it means to really live, so do the audience learn and realise it together with him. Carl (Jim) said, "You don't have to do it, you want to do it." While saying Yes to the opportunity presented, we must be true to our heart at the same time. Excellent show!

Review: 4 out of 5 stars

Why Women Cry

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?""Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he prayed to God who would surely know the answer. When God responded he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said: "When I made the woman she had to be made special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. Gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And lastly, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers and only hers exclusively to use whenever she needs it. She needs no reason, no explanation, its hers."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Meet-up with Dehua @ Kuriya

Met up with Dehua, June and Tracy for a catch-up at Kuriya in Raffles City and we had a good time of laughter and just purely comfortable in one another's presence. These are people who have impacted my life in some ways and friends I hold close to my heart. It's never easy to find people who know your weakness and still able to accept you for who you are but once u find them, hang on to them & never let them go :)

Dehua is a brother I respect and admire for his realness and his genuine interest in the lives of others. He guided me in taking care of people and having a shepherd's heart. I remember distinctly how he encouraged me to join the choir and not be afraid to follow my dreams when I shared my fears to him. I remember him telling me that it is ok to fail, just learn from my mistakes. He taught me what it means to get involved in the life of someone. I am so glad that he and Daisy are together, both people I love and admire. Looking forward to wedding bells ringing :P

June is one of my bestest friend in church as I have always shared to others. She is someone I have been through a lot with in my ministry days in NUS. Amazingly, we have been through many experiences together unique to the 2 of us. This brings us close to each other as we can identify with each other and connect deeply. I love to talk to her and she always makes me laugh. Her big heart and concern for people really touches me. A significant moment was when we went to Cameron Highlands. I vomitted on the bus and was in a mess. She wiped the vomit off me and applied medicated oil for me. I was so touched! She truly reflects the love of Christ. She has seen my ugly side but still love me. A friend I will always keep.

Tracy is another of my bestest friend in church and my sheep as well. We know each other since our JC days. She is someone I am attracted to becos of her bubbly personality and her willingness to go the extra, extra mile for others. She has a soft spot for the underdog and is someone with strong values. I enjoy listening to her share about her experiences and her innermost feelings. I know with certainty that she is someone I can count on in times of trouble and will fend for me when I am being attacked. A significant moment was when she accompany me to repair my handphone. I didn't have to do anything at all as she settled everything for me. I am thankful for this friend who share the same passion as me and understands me well.

A Thankful Heart

I just came back from Northlight School with a child from the Home after registering for her to enroll in the school. Its a vocational school for students whose PSLE results do not qualify for them to enter into the mainstream school. Before that, we had our P6 graduation for all the P6 students who have completed their PSLE. Today God taught me a lesson of patience and thanksgiving to Him in all circumstances.

Our program started with lunch and movie at E2max at Cineleisure afterwhich we will have games and photo-taking. Earlier in the week, I have booked the room from 1130-130pm. However, when we reached the place at 11am, the staff told us that the staff-in-charge has not reached and they are only able to start at 12pm. I was angry as we had already booked the place and I reasoned with the person, but to no avail. After 10 min, the person opened the door for us and allow us to use the room until the staff-in-charge comes. One of the kids came to me and ask me why I appeared so impatient.

Part 1: The staff told us that he can only let us watch the show at 1230pm and we are not able to use the membership card as the discount counter opens only at 4pm. By 1230pm after our games, we chose the dvd and watched the show which turned out to be very appropriate and interesting (Flushed away). This is amazing as we did not know abt the show previously! When we went to the counter to pay after that, the staff told us that it is on the house as they made a mistake. Thank God for that! We had the room to ourselves from 1130 and watched the show, all for free... :) It's not abt the money but the turn in events that reminds me we need to thank God in ALL circumstances.

Part 2: In the cab, on the way to Northlight School...the cab driver got to find out that my student is going to study in a vactional school and he encouraged her to retake her PSLE. We have tried to encourage and persuade her many times but she just does not want to retake her exams. The driver was very persistent and showed genuine concern, sharing with her advice from his personal experiences. When we reached the school, the child told me that she wants to retake her PSLE. When I asked her if she is sure, she looks at me and says, "I am sure." Thanks God for a change of mind.

"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." - 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Go The Distance

Go The Distance - Michael Bolton (Live) - Funny videos are here

Go The Distance
I have often dreamed of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying this is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way if I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road to embrace my fate
Though the road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back, I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track, No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope but I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star I can go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its harms
I don't care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome waiting in your arms...

The Unconditional Love Of God

Today's sermon strike a chord in my heart. The topic is on The Unconditional Love of God. Love of God - A simple truth yet speaks a lot. Pastor Jeff shared that he had been asked to share on the topic of love many times and each time he struggled due to his misconceptions of the meaning of love. The misconceptions are that love is a feeling and that love is uncontrollable. I remember a module I studied in Uni... it's called, " Understanding your emotions." There was a tutorial in which we had a most interesting debate on whether human can live without emotions. The opposition were sure having a hard time and in the end, all agreed that it is impossible. We need to be engaged with our feelings! However, the dangerous part comes when we allow our feelings to take full control of our behaviors. Hence, we need to allow God to be be in control of our thoughts and feelings. Follow our hearts, but follow God first :)

Another thing he shared sets me thinking, "When we realised that Jesus is all that we have left, we realised He is all that we need." I couldn't agree more with this statement. Often times, it is only during the dire moments in life that we treasure what we have. When we reach the state where we question if life is worth living, we talk in terms of need and not want. It's these things that keeps us going. A friend shared with me that his friend, 24 years old, just committed suicide due to a relationship problem. I feel saddened by the fragility of life and the hopelessness that drives people to put an end to it.

A world without God will perish and we need to be people-chasers and be bold to proclaim His gospel to the world. He has come so that we may live life to the full.

"I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." - John 10:10b

Ten Commandments of Friendship

Ten Commandments of Friendship

1. Speak to people – there is nothing as nice as a cheerful word of greeting.
2. Smile at people – it takes seventy-two muscles to frown and only fourteen to smile.
3. Call people by name - the sweetest music to anyone’s ear is the sound of their own name.
4. Be friendly and helpful - if you would have friends, be friendly.
5. Be cordial - speak and act as if everything you do were a real pleasure.
6. Be genuinely interested in people - you can like everyone if you try.
7. Be generous with praise - cautious with criticism.
8. Be considerate of the feelings of others - it will be appreciated.
9. Be thoughtful of the opinions of others.
10. Be alert to give service - what counts most in life is what we do for others!

(Life Management for Busy Women, Chapter 13, pg 177)

Jason's Birthday Celebration @ The Loof

Went to The Loof last night to celebrate Jason's birthday together with Marcus and Tracy. It was my first time there. We wanted to get the outside seats at the rooftop area as it was nicer and have a better view. However, it was packed and we went to the enclosed area instead(far left). From our seats, we were able to view the Raffles Hotel. The seats is cosy and comes with big cushions, dim lighting. They have really friendly waiters as well (the waiter who served us told us that he is the nicest waiter and offered to treat us to drinks if he sees us at Zouk). Overall, good atmoshphere, just that the music is slightly loud.

Marcus ordered the Gummiberry (top right) and we kept teasing him as it sounds like gummy bears. Trac ordered The Loof Life and she was saying she was getting 'a life' lol. Jason ordered a Long Island Tea (his usual) and me a glass of white wine. In the mood for it. I like the gummyberry, quite sweet but taste really good when u drink it from the glass, together with the froth on top. It is a nice blend.

It was a good chill-out and we ended off with some heartfelt sharings and a nice birthday cookie. We also gave him a nice, pink, horizontally-striped polo t-shirt from hush puppies. Look forward to seeing him in it. One step closer to being a metrosexual, brother :P

Photos Taken @ My Cousin's (Terrance) Wedding

Race to the End

Finishing Well - What People Who Really Live Do Differently

Synopsis of the book:
On the edge of a New Frontier...

Author Bob Buford calls them "pathfinders" - individuals for whom age 40 and beyond has been an opportunity to further their significance rather than to rest on their success. They are people who have pioneered the art of finishing well in these modern times, and who can teach us to do the same, starting today. Buford sought out 60 of these trailblazers - including management guru Peter Drucker, leadership mentor Ken Blanchard and philosopher and academic, Dallas Willard - and has recorded their lively conversations in these pages so that they can serve us as "mentors in print" for all of us. Twenty years from now the rules for this second adulthood as a productive season of life may be better known. But for now, we are out across the frontier breaking new ground. Buford gives you a chance to sit at the feet of these pioneers and learn from them about finishing well so that they may shift into a far more fulfilling life now, no matter your age. A life of significance that will be a legacy for future generations too.

I am currently reading this book, "Finishing Well". Through conversations of people who have been there and done that, it provided me a lot of insights into living with a purpose in mind. I felt quite overwhelmed as I flip through the pages as the issues discussed are coming from people who have lived more than half of their lives. It is that kind of feeling that you get when planning for the rest of your days before your death. Make the most of it before it's too late. Yup, tht's the gist!

Dallas talks about the critical difference between success and significance. As stated by him, success is when we are able to control the outcomes whereas significance is achieved when we leave the outcomes to God, trusting that He is in control of all things. "A power beyond our control". He shared about a story about how the dogs are trained in Florida. The dogs are given an electric rabbit to chase after. One day, the electric rabbit broke down and the dogs, at a loss what to do, started yelping and bting one another. They are in the state of confusion. Dallas asks, "What is the rabbit in our lives?"

Following from the story shared, the dogs were disillusioned as the rabbit broke down. This was probably because it was what they did not expect. The things that we do and invest in, how many of these things actually last? It's easier to invest in something which the outcomes are clear or at least appears clear to us but many a times, it may not be what meets the eyes. Are we willing to throw ourselves into the sea of uncertainty for something we believe in and yet is not sure of the outcomes.

As I look at the year ahead, there are many committments and new things to embrace. I ask myself, am I ready for all these. Didn't I want all this? What is happening now...cold feet? Perhaps I want to take on more without letting go of others. Preparation work is needed! I tell myself but how much preparation work is enough, I do not know. I have not been there and done that. However, I want to commit all my outcomes to God and SURRENDER.

The Road Less Travelled

The Road Less Travelled - Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood;
And sorry I could not travel both;
And be one traveler, Long I stood,
And looked down one as far as I could,
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim;

Because it was grassy and wanted wear.
Though as for that, the passing there,
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay,
In leaves no step had trodden black;
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh,
Somewhere ages and ages hence;
Two roads diverged in a wood,
And I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

My Records of Blessings

My Records of Blessings

I am so glad to get my mini notebook - FINALLY! It feels good to be typing on it now :) I thank God for the cheap price I got it at and also people who has helped me. Ruisheng who went with me and helped me check meticulously the parts and Charlie who helped me to refund the microsoft office which I do not need and I saved $109. I am most thankful for my brother who helped me source out the laptop, compare the prices and gave me much valuable advices!Indeed, I am blessed.

This morning I was so tired when I went to work and wanted desperately to get a cup of coffee to keep me going... but was so busy the moment I stepped into office that I did not have time for that. After that rushed into the meeting, I felt extremely sleepy. However, the devotion shared captured by attention as it was on forgiveness which was aligned with the sermon by Pastor Jeff yesterday on the forgiving heart of God. I felt God's presence with me, though still sleepy, I knew he was present.

I went for my last lesson of Project Smile today. We learnt a few more tricks and practise on previous tricks. Maybe cos I m a slow learner or I am not in form today, it took me quite a while to get it. Thank God for this guy sitting next to me who guided me and taught me till I understood. There is an uncle who passed around a packet of sweets for everyone too. Even though I am not able to go for the community session this Sat as I got to attend a wedding, I am looking 4ward 2 other chances of serving the community thr this way. When I reached home, I performed my first magic trick on my brother. He was so skeptical but I still succeeded. So glad!

I thank God also for friends in my life who are there for me. I am so touched by June and Trac. Today Trac told me that she only has one day of leave left for the year and she hopes to have the honor to spend it with me. Wow, I shld be honored. Mani guys will be dying 4 this :P Also spent the night b4 on the phone w June for long hrs. I thank God 4 this fren I can share deeply with. She is such a gd listener. I was also blessed by Wei who told me over msn tht she managed to bridge into spiritual conversation with her frens. I am so proud of her :) Thank God 4 Leanchoo aso who asked me when I am free to meet up. I really thk God for her availability.

Tmr I am gg for my interview for my masters in counseling and I thk God for that as well, also a chance to take leave for the day. A break. I am aso thkful for the tuition assignment that Trac told me she has on hand who can help me to support part of my studies for next year.

God, I pray that you sustain me in the journey ahead. I believe it will be tough, like the narrow road ahead. There are sacrifices to be made, hardships to endure but whenever I feel discouraged and want to give up, may I look back at this blog entry and be thkful to u for all u have blessed me with! I will be still, know You are God.

Little Nyonya

Little Nyonya ' - 小娘惹
I caught the first episode of the show << 小娘惹>> last night. I have to say I really enjoyed it :) I particularly like the character of Juxiang, acted by Jeanette Aw. Her character is very gentle & kind yet very strong. She is a character of grace and considers others' interests above herself. She has a genuine heart for people and is very kind to her maidservant whom she helps to pay off her debt with her red packet money. I am entranced by one scene when she was accused by her stepmother of stealing a bangle. Although she was let off, she held on to her integrity. She took a candle, lighted it and placed her hand over the flame. She swore in front of her ancestors that if she was the one who stole the bangle, her hand will be burnt till it is deformed. I love the expression on her face as she did that, not wanting to bow down to the injustice done to her. There was just a slight flinch on her face as she allow the flame to burn her hand.

Brief sypnosis:

Juxiang is born into a big Peranakan family where her mum is a mistress. She is gentle, beautiful and a fantastic cook. Born deaf-mute, she is ostracized by people. Right before the Japanese Occupation in Singapore, she is forced to marry a rich Peranakan as a mistress. Juxiang resists the marriage and runs away from home. She then meets a young Japanese photographer and after many obstacles, they finally get married and Juxiang gives birth to a daughter Yue Niang. During the World War, Juxiang is tortured and both her husband and her dies leaving behind their 8-year-old daughter...the story continues

Do catch the show!

Blasts at Bangkok Airport - A Close Shave

Blasts at Bangkok airport, other sites wound seven: officials
AFP - Wednesday, November 26

BANGKOK (AFP) - - A blast at Bangkok's international airport and grenade attacks elsewhere in the city wounded at least seven people on Wednesday, as lawlessness spread amid anti-government protests, officials said. The explosion at Suvarnabhumi Airport happened a day after demonstrators stormed the airport, forcing it to close down and stranding thousands of passengers. "At least two people were wounded by a bomb blast at Suvarnabhumi this morning," Petpong Kamchornkitkarn, an emergency medical services official, told AFP. Two local television stations said a grenade was fired at protesters and that three people were wounded. A near simultaneous grenade attack on anti-government protesters picketing Bangkok's old Don Mueang airport, where the prime minister has set up temporary offices, wounded two more people, Petpong said. Another three people were wounded when two grenades were tossed into a crowd of pro-government supporters on a road to Don Mueang, the site of a clash between rival activists that left 11 hurt on Tuesday, police said. Prime Minister Somchai Wongsawat moved to premises at Don Mueang after demonstrators occupied the government's main offices in central Bangkok in August. The People's Alliance for Democracy, a protest movement, has led a six-month street campaign against the democratically elected government.

I thank God for His protection over Junting and me, when we were in Bangkok just last week. A few more days and the people are standed at the airport would have been us. I still shudder at the thought of this. Indeed, His protection is over us 24/7!

Goodbyes Are Always Difficult

Goodbyes are always difficult...

Am feeling pretty emotional now, one of my kids is going back to China for good. Not coming back again. The sense of loss creeps in as I think of not seeing her again. The other children were very sad as well and they cried and hugged her many times. I almost cried twice but tried hard to hold back my tears as I helped her to pack her stuff and speak to her caregiver. Coming back to my office, the tears just flow. As she goes off in the cab, all the children surrounded the cab and waved until the cab cannot be seen. It was a moment of sweetness, bittersweetness. The human warmth. This is what makes us all sane, what keeps us human..

What is My Passion?

What Is My Passion?

Yesterday some of us met Peter at CN & Christine's House for a session of ministering when he prophesied over all the leaders. The place is really beautiful!

Before the time of prophesy, he shared with us the passage from Romans 15;17-20:

"Therefore I glory in Christ Jesus in my service to God. I will not venture to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading the Gentiles to obey God by what I have said and done— by the power of signs and miracles, through the power of the Spirit. So from Jerusalem all the way around to Illyricum, I have fully proclaimed the gospel of Christ. It has always been my ambition to preach the gospel where Christ was not known, so that I would not be building on someone else's foundation."

From the passage, he brought out 2 points. One of which is on how much are we allowing the glory of God to fill us. He shared about the example of Billy Graham playing golf with the president. After the time spent together, the president exclaimed that he can feel the presence of God in just short interaction with him. Secondly, Peter asked all of us what our passion is. He shared that his passion is in evangelism. I am inspired by the change in his life. He shared that he used to be a very shy person who does not dare to share testimony. However, as God convicts him, he starts to want to share about how God has bless his life to the others around him. His pastor challenged him to send out emails on evangelism to people, to share what he knows. He started from 100 people to 500 and eventually to 2500 currently. It's amazing how God expand his influence as he obeys!

My passion is for the broken-hearted and I really pray that God will use me in this area, to reach out to the weak and poor and to lift them up. I look forward to how God can extend my influence in this area in time to come.

There are a few things prophesied over me:
* To have a Mary's heart, seeking intimacy with God daily
* Seeking a breakthrough. Vision of a narrow road. Though the path is narrow, it will be made available to me if I am willing to pay the price
* The Joy of the Lord is my strength in serving Him
* Trust in God even when things do not appear logical
* Build up my foundation, I am a lighthouse.

Seems like my new year resolution is set for me haha...

A Fun Day At The Home

Today, Bluewerks came to the Children's Home to bless the children with magic show, carnival, lunch, goodie bags and gifts. There were a few games stations, the Rifle range, the ring a bottle, the cake box, soccer game. The most pupular one has to be the ring a bottle where the queue is always the longest. The game requires the child to throw 6 hoops over the neck of many nicely placed bottles on the floor. With each hoop on the neck, they get a goodie each. The face painting was very popular as well, we have spiderman, tiger, butterfly etc After that the children decorated digestive biscuits and had a good time eating what they have created. Thank God for the people who came down. It is indeed more a blessing to give than to receive. The smile on their faces is worth the while... :)

After work, I met up with 2 sponsors who paid for the expenses (school fees, tuition, miscellanous etc) of 2 of the children in my Home for the entire year 2009. I am very touched by their humility and their genuine extension of help to the children. It amazes me that during the period of economic crisis, there are people who will not look to themselves but choose to give to the the less fortunate. They asked me what are the guidelines they should follow and for advice on relating with the children. I shared with them that sometimes when the sponsors get too close to the children and lavish gifts on them, unrealistic expectations set in. It will also breed jealousy among other children. Hearing this, the sponsor said that he will pass the money to the Home to get the gifts for the children instead, choosing to remain anonymous. This really struck me as it shows that they do not ask for recognition for what they are doing and are willing to go down to the level of the children, to understand them from their perspective.

"And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." - Matthew 18:3

My Trip To Bangkok - A Colourful City

My Trip to Bangkok - A Colourful City

I just came back from my 2-days trip to Bangkok with Junting. Three words to sum it all up: Crazy Shopping Spree haha...I can be a real shopaholic! We stayed in Asia Hotel, which is a fantastic location cos it's so accessible! A skytrain right in front of the hotel and a 10-min walk to 2 big malls. I like the unstructured infrastructure and the simplicity of the people. Here are some snapshots of our trip (Photos to come up soon):

Day 1
930am: Reach Asia Hotel
The traffic is super congested and more than half the vehicles on the road are taxis of all different colours - Pink, purple, yellow, orange... all BRIGHT
1130am: Shopping begins @ Platinum & MBK
First response - My goodness! How can I finish walking through all the shops? It's just impossible. There are 1500 shops altogether.
10pm: Dinner @ a roadside stall
I am extremely hungry after a whole day of shopping. The fried beef, mixed salad, sticky rice and tom yum soup were just so inviting. We tried the Chang Beer as well, it was well..nice and smooth :)
1130pm: Back to Hotel, hot bath & Sleep
Blessings: Good location of the hotel, no stomach upset after the meal at the roadside stall, a good sleep, lotsa good buys, great sharing sessions
Best buy of the day: The lovely t-shirts
Highlight of the day: Dinner

Day 2
10am: Sumptuous breakfast at the hotel
We began the day with great expectancy, rearing to go and purchase the things after having surveyed the market the day before
11am: Shopping begins again!
3pm: Lunch - Sukiyaki and rice with fried pork
430pm: Back to hotel, unpack and rest
7pm: Dinner @ Big Jim- Phat Thai, Green Curry, Fried Rice and Spring Rolls
8pm: Shopping @ night market
1030pm: Back to hotel.
We tried the Singha beer. Nice and smooth as well. JT likes it :)
Blessings: Everything was right on schedule, good buys, good sleep, great sharing sessions
Best buy of the day: My cute crocs
Highlight of the day: The night market

Day 3 - Last day
10am: Breakfast at the hotel
11am: Took the skytrain to MBK for last-min Shopping (Yup, again)
1130am: Cab to airport
240pm: Back to Singapore!
Blessings: Managed to get the top JT wants, cab fare is the amt we prayed for, safe trip

During these 2 days, I got to know JT much better and we both thankful to each other for the company. She say I am a good travel mate for her cos I do not over-worry ha. In a different culture, we tend to see parts of ourselves which we usually overlooked. Here are some of my observations about us:

(1) Time-efficient
(2) Easy-going
(3) Analytical, Observant, Thoughtful
(4) Focused and organised
(5) Able to walk long distances
(6) People-oriented, sensitive to culture
(7) Sensitive to details
(8) Can be a shopaholic (haha)

Looking forward to the next trip!

Project Smile

Project Smile

Ever since the magic show performance I watched at the Esplanade by Pastor Lawrence and Priscilla, I was inspired to want to learn magic tricks as well. I will be going for the first round of my lesson tonight and I am feeling really excited. I hope to be able to perform at my Children's Home, as entertainment for the children as well as in building rapport and teaching values to them through this creative way. Through humor and lively entertainment. I also hope to be able to use this skill when I go for my Short Term Missions Trip in time to come, as a form of communication to people who do not share the common heart language as me. Jiayan GO!
SMILE - Sharing Magic in Love Everywhere!

Spread A Little Sunshine

" Nobody needs a smile as much as the one who has none to give. So get used to smiling heart-warming smiles, and you will spread sunshine in a sometimes dreary world."

- Lawrence G. Lovasi

When was the last time I received a smile that comes from the heart? A quote that a friend shared with me before came to mind. She say that a smile is a curve that straighten things out. In a fast-paced society such as Singapore, it is not uncommon to find tight-lipped faces everywhere we go.In the trains, the streets, in our workplaces. People are just too overwhelmed by the demands of life that they forget to smile. The last memorable time someone I do not know smiled at me must have been the bus driver. I was rushing for the last bus after I parted with Jean and Clarence and with my guitar, I went up the bus. Being the clumsy me, I almost could not get through as my big bag and guitar makes it two of me. Instead of snapping at me, the driver smiled at me and said," You are a one-woman band." His smile put me at ease as I suantered up the bus with my load. I smiled back at him in gratefulness.

There was a feeling of acceptance, love and understanding. Nothing is as contagious as a smile. It's universal! And it's free and everyone can do it. Just twist the muscle of your mouth a little and wala, there u are, a nice smile. I remember in the show, Hancock, the main lead is a hard man. He does not have friends and lead an independent life. He wanted to change his reputation and his friend encouraged him to smile more, to encourage others more. He looked into the mirror and practised smiling and saying, "Good job" a couple of times before he could get it right. The sight was so hilarious! When we are thrown into bad situations, we become hardened and that's when we slowly become people who are very serious and clam up. Open up, smile at the world and make it a better place. For myself and others!

Spread a little sunshine to someone today! :)