The Steadfast Love of the Lord

This song keep ringing in my head this morning. I recall hearing it for the first time @ a camp many years ago and it was led by Jasmine. Tears just flow when she was leading the song. I recall her leading us into prayer to address God as Daddy, Papa and any other names that we want. At that moment, I felt God is such a personal God. Every morning, God is with me.

EVERY single morning.

Came across this thai version on youtube and it reminds me of many years ago when I went on a short term missions trip to Surat Thani and we learnt from a brother how to sing P&W songs in Thai :) I remember us gathering at the food court and learning how to sing the songs and the brother say he will give a prize to the one who sang it the best and I got it :) It was a memorable experience visiting the churches and praying for them. We even led a mini service together! I remember we prayed for a Pastor as he has an accident and he was healed. It's good to pray spontaneously, serve spontaneously and lead p&w spontaneously.

I wish that I can do it again.

God really knows my needs. He sent me an encouragement through my kids

 this morning with a simple card :)

Psalms 37:23-24

Am feeling really tired after the meeting and the many things to do @ work. Yes, I presented with energy and knowledge of my area of work but the end product is a physcially drained Jiayan. Sometimes I wish I am a few years younger and I can go on with much energy even after work but reality is that my body will just function slower as the years go by. It's time to get into the habit of exercising but more importantly, allowing God to be my strength. Today, I pray for a quiet strength, a strength that comes from knowing that God is with me and that He will lift me up in All situations.

This verses kept me going for the day:

The LORD makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with his hand."
- Psalms 37:23-24

Keep the act?

When a relationship turns sour, there seems to be no turning back except if you are family. Of course, even that does not prevent love and cameraderie from becoming hatred or indifference. Life goes on. Yup, its a scary world. Few absolutes but lotsa greys. So grey till you probably sometimes can't see where the truth lies. The rules keep changing. They call it, "moving with times." Once unacceptable yesterday is sought after today. So one wonder who's to determine the standards. At this, many just take things into their own hands. At least there is some element of control in the midst of uncertainty. So, one then questions, is this just a false sense of control? An attempt to make oneself feels safer. Who knows? The right and the wrong, the false and the true sometimes intertwine and one becomes another in the split of the second. Therefore, some resort to ignorance. Afterall, isn't ignorance = bliss? If you can keep the act (within) together, why not? If you can pretend that all is ok and live a blissful and uncomplicated life, why not? If you can be as adaptable as a chamelon, why not? Well, all things come with a cost. The cost of one's values, the cost of one's identity, the cost of one's true self and many others. I, for one, believes that the act will eventually fall apart.

xiao qing ge

A song that keeps ringing in my head today :)