"What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?" Matthew 16:26
This verse came to mind this morning and stopped me in my tracks as I was in the midst of completing my to-do list. Many thoughts fill my head. Thoughts about people and what motivates them to do what they do. What is the driving force behind the actions?
Is it for more recognition? Fear of losing what they possess? Wanting more material gains?
Will one go against his will in order to gain more or worse, go against his conscience. possible or very likely, as least that's what I see daily. I think to myself, "what's the point?" What goes round comes round. Havent they read the story about the couple who are very mean to their elderly parents and when their child grow up, he does the same thing to them, telling them that it is what they are being taught since young.
In the light of God and His eternity, all things pale in comparison. Whatever the world can give us is but temporal. Father, I pray that nothing will have a hold over me except you and that you will always be my first resort in times of challenges, that I will allow your intervention into my problem. Pray right, Think right and Live right. Amen.
A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love.
Freshness
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Jane Eyre
Some 'Me - Time' tonight :)
Going to watch the movie of one of my favourite books and though it's often the case that the movie is never better than the book, I am in anticipation ...
Some things are best done alone cos somehow it's not easy to find another who shares similar passion :)
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Heart connection
I have an exceptionally strong realization today that through this five years, I have grown up together with the kids. It was a tough journey for both me n them. Me, an inexperienced worker with just a heart for them n few skills to now. From a 23 year old girl who jus started work to now. And them struggling thr the awkward years of pre-teen to now. We have indeed come a long way.
Thinking of the day I go up to the stage to get my five years award, tears just flow.
All the memories, tears, sweat and everything else...
I thank God for the journey thus far. My struggles which changes along the way but which makes me emotionally more equipped for the job n more compassion for my clients n more passion for the disadvantaged in the society. If I can turn back time, I will do it the same all over again. Albeit several -ve n painful experiences which took place, I feel I grow as an individual n mature as a Christian. It's all worth it n no regrets.
I have invested n I have received.
Thinking of the day I go up to the stage to get my five years award, tears just flow.
All the memories, tears, sweat and everything else...
I thank God for the journey thus far. My struggles which changes along the way but which makes me emotionally more equipped for the job n more compassion for my clients n more passion for the disadvantaged in the society. If I can turn back time, I will do it the same all over again. Albeit several -ve n painful experiences which took place, I feel I grow as an individual n mature as a Christian. It's all worth it n no regrets.
I have invested n I have received.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Betrayal cuts deep
Witnessed an act of betrayal and it just disgusts me... I wonder how many we can trust these days.
This Someone who will reduce u to nothing but an addict by name and reveal whatever u have shared in confidence to him because u r a threat to him. Some pple just can't take the competition, they handle it through elimination. The world is getting scarier each day and it just stop me in my tracks while I look at the future ahead. Pple who will stoop to anything to get u off ur course if there is a need to in order to lift themselves up.
Indeed a SELF-professed christian. Nothing but a load of bullshit.
Getting real sick of this :(
This Someone who will reduce u to nothing but an addict by name and reveal whatever u have shared in confidence to him because u r a threat to him. Some pple just can't take the competition, they handle it through elimination. The world is getting scarier each day and it just stop me in my tracks while I look at the future ahead. Pple who will stoop to anything to get u off ur course if there is a need to in order to lift themselves up.
Indeed a SELF-professed christian. Nothing but a load of bullshit.
Getting real sick of this :(
Thursday, May 19, 2011
A good deed
Noticed a typical human reaction earlier on at the hawker centre...
As I was furiously globbling down my fishball noodle, I suddenly realize that the queue in front of the fishball noodle stall was suddenly very long. Before that there was not even a single person! Wondering if it was me savoring the food right in front if the stall that caused that.. Becoming the 活招聘。
The usual me would have caused one to take a look n move over to another stall but today it was the hungry me so good for them :)
Actually saw one lady going to walk away den she saw me eating n
Walked bck to buy haha
Yay! I did a gd deed just by being me ! :)
As I was furiously globbling down my fishball noodle, I suddenly realize that the queue in front of the fishball noodle stall was suddenly very long. Before that there was not even a single person! Wondering if it was me savoring the food right in front if the stall that caused that.. Becoming the 活招聘。
The usual me would have caused one to take a look n move over to another stall but today it was the hungry me so good for them :)
Actually saw one lady going to walk away den she saw me eating n
Walked bck to buy haha
Yay! I did a gd deed just by being me ! :)
Passion to power your dream
This morning I saw the RSAF advertisement that goes like this:
It takes ambition to go places
But passion to power your dream
At that moment, I told God, "If there is such a thing as rebirth in my job, I pray that it will be now." Five years into the job and two more years before I end my bond, I hope that nothing will diminish this passion which led me into this job and field in the first place. One which stirred in my heart since my JC days when I had a brush with volunteering and later on fan into flame during my course of studies. Without passion, it's impossible to go on with POWER.
From my boss yesterday:
This case is very intensive and Jasmine have put in so much work, working both with mother and son. This intensity cannot be sustained over a long period as it would burn out any professional. Hence, I would appreciate if MCYS can give the decision and support for the programmes requested. Thank you.
One of my kids said during groupwork yest: "I know if I have nightmare I can pray to God. I dun have nightmares anymore."
Well, am pretty amazed by what he shared as that was not the key of the discussion we had but sometimes u just dunno what they captured. Little things like this reminds me again that I am making a difference and my hard work is being recognised :) yes, Jiayan Jiayou!
It takes ambition to go places
But passion to power your dream
At that moment, I told God, "If there is such a thing as rebirth in my job, I pray that it will be now." Five years into the job and two more years before I end my bond, I hope that nothing will diminish this passion which led me into this job and field in the first place. One which stirred in my heart since my JC days when I had a brush with volunteering and later on fan into flame during my course of studies. Without passion, it's impossible to go on with POWER.
From my boss yesterday:
This case is very intensive and Jasmine have put in so much work, working both with mother and son. This intensity cannot be sustained over a long period as it would burn out any professional. Hence, I would appreciate if MCYS can give the decision and support for the programmes requested. Thank you.
One of my kids said during groupwork yest: "I know if I have nightmare I can pray to God. I dun have nightmares anymore."
Well, am pretty amazed by what he shared as that was not the key of the discussion we had but sometimes u just dunno what they captured. Little things like this reminds me again that I am making a difference and my hard work is being recognised :) yes, Jiayan Jiayou!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Good enough?
It's mad rush for me once again. Boy run away from home, houseparent forgotten to submit the report, submission of new reports to MCYS, meeting parents blah blah blah and the list goes on. Sometimes I really need to control my anger...feel very much like blasting in the phone sometimes. "If it doesnt get through, it's your business you know." I mean..I am not even in charge of that...and aren't we working together as a team, how can she say that? Cant stand the pple vying for recognition through their well-crafted email exaggerating the amount of work they have done. Well, talk about marketing. Such things disgust me, they gross me out and make my work an unpleasant affair. When it comes to life, I won't use the word, "good enough". When people tell me that life is very good already, it's hard to digest. It's like as if saying, "well, I can't expect much but ya...this is very good already. I mean like...I have NO choice rite??!! " hmmm...cough cough. Enough said. Few words that speaks alot. To me, it's either very good or how I can make it better if it's not. Not "It's very good already." Maybe I am being judgemental or maybe cos it the first weekday after a holiday and I am getting a little cranky. Whatever it it, I am prepared to push on and fight for a better tomorrow. Not with underhand means but by living my life with honesty and seriously take pride in what I do ...
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
When the line is unclear
It takes tremendous courage to bare your heart to someone knowing that you are placing yourself in a vulnerable postition. It's a step of faith taken and I am glad I did. Regardless of the outcome, I was being honest with myself and the other person and yes, the most important ingredient in a relationship - trust. The last 10% which most always choose NOT to say is indeed difficult to spit out, stuck in your throat most times. Why is it that the truth is always difficult to say out and what is in your heart most well hidden? Perhaps life has become a game of camouflage, pple hiding from love for love has caused pain to them. Afterall, the more you feel for someone or something, the more u r allowing that person permission to hurt you but to not feel anything at all in your heart, u wonder if such a life is worth living.
At the end of the day, I still feel that putting yourself on the line is far better than standing at the sideline.
You may be fighting for the wrong person or the wrong reason but at least you are fighting for a passion which belongs to you and you alone.
At the end of the day, I still feel that putting yourself on the line is far better than standing at the sideline.
You may be fighting for the wrong person or the wrong reason but at least you are fighting for a passion which belongs to you and you alone.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Happinessssss
Happiness is when you wake up on a Monday morning feeling totally at peace with yourself and everything else ! :)))))
Friday, May 6, 2011
Candidate for Christ
One more day to voting day!
Thinking to myself on what Choon Yam shared last night during district.
How does Christ in us makes a difference to our lives?
Do we pray daily in the spirit or only during services/ prayer meets/ LGs? If not, why?
Is our life as a christian convincing?
Hard questions (glup)
Looking at the candidates from opposition this year, its no wonder why many are simply allured to their speeches. The conviction and passion which threaten to ooze out of them any minute. People love that, they love someone who can make a difference. As a christian, does our life spells conviction, passion and taste of victory or is it just an unimpressionable nice guy/gal living day by day, slipping flawlessly into the system? It's tough not to succumb to the pressure. In a way, it's depressing.
Everyone's looking for a saviour but do they know that we already have one? Maybe they are just waiting for someone to tell them and to bring them into his goodness.
Food for thought: How would I present myself as a candidate for Christ?
Thinking to myself on what Choon Yam shared last night during district.
How does Christ in us makes a difference to our lives?
Do we pray daily in the spirit or only during services/ prayer meets/ LGs? If not, why?
Is our life as a christian convincing?
Hard questions (glup)
Looking at the candidates from opposition this year, its no wonder why many are simply allured to their speeches. The conviction and passion which threaten to ooze out of them any minute. People love that, they love someone who can make a difference. As a christian, does our life spells conviction, passion and taste of victory or is it just an unimpressionable nice guy/gal living day by day, slipping flawlessly into the system? It's tough not to succumb to the pressure. In a way, it's depressing.
Everyone's looking for a saviour but do they know that we already have one? Maybe they are just waiting for someone to tell them and to bring them into his goodness.
Food for thought: How would I present myself as a candidate for Christ?
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Good Tips for Life-work balance
[What to say to your boss]
PLEASE do not invite me to breakfast.
It’s not that I don’t like breakfast. To the contrary, I could happily eat eggs or cereal at every meal. But I write about life-work balance, and it feels a little contradictory to conduct an interview, or attend a conference, or give a speech, when everyone involved had to sacrifice sleep to attend.
I have similar qualms about working dinners. After a long day of work, why follow it up with more work?
. . .
There has been a shift in the role of these meetings-with-food over the years. In the 80′s, a 7 a.m. appointment was a sign that you were so important you had to start before dawn. We called them power breakfasts back then, and Masters of the Universe wanted to be seen at their regular table at dawn.
More recently, however, they’ve come to feel like yet another symptom of an overstuffed day.
(Extracted from Life at the Bar)
Some tips on how to have "life-work balance:
1. Plan intentionally. If you “go with the flow,” someone else will be determining the balance of your life. Instead, spend a few minutes every month deciding what commitments (business and personal commitments) are non-negotiable for you. Don’t forget to include time you spend on true recreation (Amen to that!). Mark those on your calendars, and then consider what else you’d like to add in.
2. Exercise your discretion. When you have an opportunity to attend a work gathering, whether it’s a working meeting or business socializing, at times outside the ordinary work day, consider carefully before accepting. What will you be saying “no” to if you say “yes” to this event? Is the event important? Is it urgent? Do you want to do it? There’s no single “right” answer here that means you should or shouldn’t attend. The questions will lead you to your decision without dictating it.
3. Limit yourself. You either have learned or will learn soon that energy is not infinite. Adding morning and evening business commitments to a packed schedule can constitute self-sabotage if done without attention to the effects on your energy level. One client I worked with decided to limit herself to 2 evening commitments each week and never to schedule a morning meeting before 9 AM on the day following an evening commitment. Although she reduced the number of hours she devoted to work in this way, she increased her productivity during working hours as a result.
PLEASE do not invite me to breakfast.
It’s not that I don’t like breakfast. To the contrary, I could happily eat eggs or cereal at every meal. But I write about life-work balance, and it feels a little contradictory to conduct an interview, or attend a conference, or give a speech, when everyone involved had to sacrifice sleep to attend.
I have similar qualms about working dinners. After a long day of work, why follow it up with more work?
. . .
There has been a shift in the role of these meetings-with-food over the years. In the 80′s, a 7 a.m. appointment was a sign that you were so important you had to start before dawn. We called them power breakfasts back then, and Masters of the Universe wanted to be seen at their regular table at dawn.
More recently, however, they’ve come to feel like yet another symptom of an overstuffed day.
(Extracted from Life at the Bar)
Some tips on how to have "life-work balance:
1. Plan intentionally. If you “go with the flow,” someone else will be determining the balance of your life. Instead, spend a few minutes every month deciding what commitments (business and personal commitments) are non-negotiable for you. Don’t forget to include time you spend on true recreation (Amen to that!). Mark those on your calendars, and then consider what else you’d like to add in.
2. Exercise your discretion. When you have an opportunity to attend a work gathering, whether it’s a working meeting or business socializing, at times outside the ordinary work day, consider carefully before accepting. What will you be saying “no” to if you say “yes” to this event? Is the event important? Is it urgent? Do you want to do it? There’s no single “right” answer here that means you should or shouldn’t attend. The questions will lead you to your decision without dictating it.
3. Limit yourself. You either have learned or will learn soon that energy is not infinite. Adding morning and evening business commitments to a packed schedule can constitute self-sabotage if done without attention to the effects on your energy level. One client I worked with decided to limit herself to 2 evening commitments each week and never to schedule a morning meeting before 9 AM on the day following an evening commitment. Although she reduced the number of hours she devoted to work in this way, she increased her productivity during working hours as a result.
This is cute or what?! =D
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Seriously?! :)
I find this funny...
Why so serious?? Isn't life meant to be lived?
Yest an old friend suddenly texted me cos my status is "A new chapter" and we chatted blah blah blah and she said she heard that I am in a relationship with a brother from church. Well, news not only spread fast but far haha. I mean it was like ages since we have last met :) She remembered us shopping at Marina 9 years back and that I used to like green nail polish. That was kinda sweet for me and I rem she likes the colour red :) Well well... something to look forward this Friday... and updates from another fren abt her relationship, happy that its going great. The top I ordered came yesterday. Finally. I like the green, just like how it looks on the website.
Two more days to weekends.
Two more days to polling day!
My very first time :))
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Happy Day :)
Soon it's going to be time for home. Feels so fast, perhaps cos it has been a long weekend, I am still stretching myself to get the engine going for the week. Before i know it, I know it's soon to be yet another weekend :) Just 3 more days. Today, I thank God for the many holidays in the month of May. Labour day, Vesak day, Off in lieu for polling day, off in lieu for family day. I thank God for the people I connected with today. I thank God for reminding me of the many needs in this world. I thank God for the ability to give. I thank God that my mum came for the service yesterday for the first time in my ten years as a christian :))
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