Looking forward

One month over, 11 more months to go.

It has been a frutiful month of catching up with old friends (people I have not met for the longest time like my sec sch best frens, NPCC frens!), time with my best friends recalling our memories, started my driving lessons, meeting with boyfriend (first time to my house, universal studios, Sentosa and meeting with his colleagues), sowing on friends (steamboat, badminton) and people who has been mentors in my life (Daisy, Meling, Junting). Though not much time for myself, I had felt energized and alive.

I look forward to more to come in the coming months.

Looking ahead, there is Meiyan's wedding, Daisy's wedding, Jingna's wedding, Huiwen's baby shower, Tracy's bday in the upcoming two months. Weekends taken up for hen's night, discussion, weddings. It will be a time of preparation and sharing in their joy. Also, the changes which are taking place in CG, the restructuring which is going to take place very soon. Preparing to move ahead as a team in the different directions which God calls us. This sure is eventful. To say the least.

Just booked my driving test on 4th April. I hope I can pass once and for all :) After that will be planning for family day in May. June another busy month, going to STM, church camp, KL with ZY, staff day.

For now, the first half of the year seems pretty packed and planned out already.

Unless you are happy ...

I am never tired of hearing people share about how their hearts have been touched or what they have been pondering about cos it gives me a glimpse into another, in a deeper measure :) I feel that I can almost understand what that person is going. All that which makes up that person to cause him/ her to have such a thought or experience something deeply. Probably that's why I am suited for this job.

This morning I was a little worried about myself. Worried that my small heart will overtake me. But I thank God that it didn't happen and I was able to embrace it with a genuine smile coming from my heart. It must have been God :)

This sharing really struck a chord in me:

Unless you are happy with yourself, you won't be happy with what you do
Unless you are happy with yourself, you won't be happy with where you are
Unless you are happy with yourself, you won't be happy with who you are with
Unless you are happy with yourself, you won't be happy with what you have

I am happy because I have God

There is always two sides to a coin

Wondering why it keeps raining...the thought of wanting to go cycling thrown out of the window.

Today the instructor was very funny, he asked me, "ni zao dao ni de bai ma wang zi le ma?" haha, turns out he wants to intro his son to me. I learnt how to do a U-turn a few more times today, needs to be more familiarised though. Hoping to book my practical test on 2nd April. Was quite scared when I was driving at the narrow road with the lorry in front of me. I am still ay 40km/hr...when can I successfully go on the road on my own?

Has been an emotional time and still is... I just pray that God will lift me out of this in due time...prob coupled with PMS as well. Well...hoping this will end soon. In His timing. I need to be reminded that this is just a part of my life, though my passion and that I have invested much in it, it's still a part of my life. I can overcome it.

I did a silly thing, submitting entries on love to the newspaper contest. Fun and I do hope I can be one of the 50 entries. Looking forward to the announcement of results on 11th Feb :)

Everytime I ask June how her day is, she will ask me not to ask her so often cos her answer will be "normal" or "it's ok" and she will comment that something always seems to happen everyday in my life. I wonder whether such a 'happening' life is good cos it's pretty tiring. I feel in touch and engaged but also tired sometimes. It's like on and on and on. Two sides to a coin :)

It's ok

Being human requires us to first acknowledge we cannot and will not be able to handle everything. But when is the point when it becomes an excuse to run away from responsibilities or difficult emotions? Beats me. Perhaps it's when u realize that u never get anywhere near those things that upset u anymore or when u get paralysed when faced with it. Blocking is a coping mechanism n it helps make the pain manageable till the healing takes place.

The never ending process... Not rushing it but not sidestepping it. I need to learn to hide my emotions better.

My fat cat :)

Happily eating my chocolate :)

I think it's really true that chocolate can make you feel happy ...cos I am feeling relaxed and happy now.

It was a good meeting and now waiting to go for a meeting with a parent and I am off to driving lesson :)

...

Just now during the meeting, a houseparent said that she asked the children what their fav animals are.

One boy said, " I want to be the lion because he is the king of the jungle" Another said, "I want to be the cheetah because it can run very fast" and guess what, my fav boy said, "I want to be a cat because it's small and cute".

So cute :) No wonder I love him so much.