A sad note

The day began on a sad note.

Another person leaving the team and this is the only person in the workplace whom I feel most comfortable with and now she's going. I know I should be happy for her that she is pursuing God's calling for her and deep down, I can't stop the sinking feeling from setting in. I am in great denial (numbing my emotions). No wonder I have been feeling real emotional recently, like as though God is preparing me for what is to come. The dream I had on Sunday that Ling was moving to a new place. It's scary, reminded me of that time when my dad passed away, I had a sad dream the nite before as well. All these thoughts of losses are like filling my mind.

Another shocking news which came in a conversation. It solved the puzzle in my head rite at the start when she first joined.

In a way, everything is slowly making sense but while ignorance leaves me and knowledges sets in, the pain comes along with it as well. It's draining my energy bit by bit.